Slowin' down...
Still hate this scale...Not really certain what my weight loss is for the week, but my guess is 2-3 lbs. It would seem that is another slow down. Although, really I have myself to blame. I have still been sticking to the diet (no foods eaten that aren't listed), but I have also not been AS careful with the portions because I don't have a food scale here and have been guessing a lot.
And probably more importantly, there is the fact that I have indulged in wine a couple of times since I have been here. It was necessary though, so I guess I just have to suck it up and accept that my weight loss will start speeding up again in a couple weeks when I get home (I miss home!!)
Worth it...
Went out with an old friend last night and shared a couple bottles of wine. GREAT time! I so needed it! I could not have had a worse day if I had planned it to be bad! I had the kids to myself, so I planned (in great detail) a day out at the London Aquarium, London Eye, and the Thames River Cruise. The night before I had packed our lunches, got the back pack all set up with diapers, wipes, and toys. I knew which bus to take, etc.
What actually happened was: The bus took SO long to get their that by the time I got us into the aquarium I realised I had to get us back out again so that we wouldn't miss our 12:45 river cruise (which I had planned at that time so I could give the kids lunch on the boat.
It took 45 minutes to find my way out of that damn aquarium! I got completely lost! We missed our boat so had to been rescheduled for the 1:45 one. This meant eating lunch outside on the wet tables (did I mention this was the first day it decided to PISS down rain)!
So we had just enough time to eat lunch and for the kids to get bored and cranky before we got on the boat...then I was completely mortified by these freshly spoiled kids during our boat ride! I know grandparents are supposed to spoil kids, but my kids were never spoiled, in fact I was always proud of how well behaved they were in public...I always made a big effort for them to be respectful and polite. Their behavior has taken a complete 180 since we have been here though...I have so much damage control when I get home!
Anyway...ended up skipping the Eye, got lost for an hour and a half trying to find a bus stop that was working and had my bus...took an hour and a half to get back home because it was right at the end of the school day (that was really enjoyable...).
So, needless to say...I needed a glass of wine!
About Me
- OnMyWayToThin...
- I am a 27 year-old wife and mother of two. I am currently in a Grad School Intervention Specialist Program, though my undergrad was in Journalism and that is were my real passion lies. Don't get me wrong, I know I will love what I do...I have worked with kids with Special Needs for half my life, but I also have a great passion for journalism and literature.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Delays!
Sorry for the delay...
Ok, so I didn't realize how difficult it would be to sit down and blog after my husband abandoned me [;o)] in London with my in-laws! I feel very awkward just sitting and typing away on the computer while sitting in a room with them. Right now, my mother-in-law took the kids in the stroller to the shop and my father-in-law (who I feel markedly more comfortable around anyway) is reading the paper...soooo I feel I can at least do a quick update.
SLOWING down...
So, it appears that my weight loss is slowing down here. I do realize that the scale isn't as accurate (much harder to read), and that I have been stressed, however, I have been CONSTANTLY on the move, shoving the kids around in the stroller one place or another. I also have a harder time with measurements and my mother-in-law is also insisting on preparing my dinner. I have made it very clear that I am on a very strict diet, but this does not stop her. In her defense she has been giving me plates with either salmon or some other protein and vegetables, but there have been too many vegetables and the protein servings are not measured.
So basically, since my husband (a.k.a. my voice in the house) left, I haven't lost anything. Weigh day isn't until Friday, but seeing as how I haven't lost anything up until today (Wednesday), it's not looking good...
Rambling...
Excuse my writing...if it sounds like I'm rambling or rushing, well, I am! I need to update here, take a shower, and have gone to the drug store before the kids get back! Must run! Any suggestions for my current food situation/mother-in-law situation would be welcome!
*Oh, and I have been checking my ketones...while my husband was here I was measuring moderate to high...now I am back down to small. Boo!
Ok, so I didn't realize how difficult it would be to sit down and blog after my husband abandoned me [;o)] in London with my in-laws! I feel very awkward just sitting and typing away on the computer while sitting in a room with them. Right now, my mother-in-law took the kids in the stroller to the shop and my father-in-law (who I feel markedly more comfortable around anyway) is reading the paper...soooo I feel I can at least do a quick update.
SLOWING down...
So, it appears that my weight loss is slowing down here. I do realize that the scale isn't as accurate (much harder to read), and that I have been stressed, however, I have been CONSTANTLY on the move, shoving the kids around in the stroller one place or another. I also have a harder time with measurements and my mother-in-law is also insisting on preparing my dinner. I have made it very clear that I am on a very strict diet, but this does not stop her. In her defense she has been giving me plates with either salmon or some other protein and vegetables, but there have been too many vegetables and the protein servings are not measured.
So basically, since my husband (a.k.a. my voice in the house) left, I haven't lost anything. Weigh day isn't until Friday, but seeing as how I haven't lost anything up until today (Wednesday), it's not looking good...
Rambling...
Excuse my writing...if it sounds like I'm rambling or rushing, well, I am! I need to update here, take a shower, and have gone to the drug store before the kids get back! Must run! Any suggestions for my current food situation/mother-in-law situation would be welcome!
*Oh, and I have been checking my ketones...while my husband was here I was measuring moderate to high...now I am back down to small. Boo!
Friday, May 20, 2011
Weigh Day...Second of four in London...
Damn scales...
I really hate this scale. I had to have my husband try to read it while I was weighing myself and even with his face up to it he had a hard time!
So I went with the higher of the two weights he was tottering between. So I believe that means I lost 5 lbs. this week. Glad it is going back up at least!
Uncomfortable...
So I have been super uncomfortable in the past week. And I'm not just talking about the mental kind that comes from staying at your in-law's for a month. I have been, shall we say, "backed up"for seven days and counting...
Whether this is because of diet, stress, or what...I don't know, but it has to be dealt with immediately. I'm so uncomfortable and I also wonder what my weight loss could have been...hmmmm.
Ketosis...
I've also noticed that my ketones are higher than before. That's a good thing right?
I really hate this scale. I had to have my husband try to read it while I was weighing myself and even with his face up to it he had a hard time!
So I went with the higher of the two weights he was tottering between. So I believe that means I lost 5 lbs. this week. Glad it is going back up at least!
Uncomfortable...
So I have been super uncomfortable in the past week. And I'm not just talking about the mental kind that comes from staying at your in-law's for a month. I have been, shall we say, "backed up"for seven days and counting...
Whether this is because of diet, stress, or what...I don't know, but it has to be dealt with immediately. I'm so uncomfortable and I also wonder what my weight loss could have been...hmmmm.
Ketosis...
I've also noticed that my ketones are higher than before. That's a good thing right?
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
A rare moment of silence...
Recap...
So, quick recap of the last, say, five years of my life. Met a Brit, fell in love, gained weight, diagnosed with PCOS, graduated with a degree in Journalism (with which I have done nothing relevant), got married, lived in London for a year, got pregnant (very blessed), got fat, had a miscarriage, got fatter, got pregnant again (doubly blessed), got even fatter, now one year later am attempting the Protein Sparing Modified Fast (PSMF) while visiting the in-laws for a month in London.
Now I wondered if my stress levels may have been hindering my weight loss. The past few weeks (finals, packing, moving, traveling with a one year-old and three year-old) have been chaotic and extremely stressful. I have been losing weight, but I have also noticed that with each week that passes I lose a little less. I realize this could be a natural part of this unnatural diet, but at the same time, I eat so little I feel like I should be wasting away right now. And, although my husband says I am, I am in fact not wasting away.
Damn kilos and stones...
Initially I thought the scale here at my in-laws' house was fairly close to mine, maybe a pound off. But that is mostly because I happened to be right on one of the stone marks. However, I either cannot tell if I am losing weight, because the pound markers are minuscule in size, or I am in fact not losing weight...to which I would say: "What a crock of shit!"
I have probably eaten less here that at home...still in ketosis...and walking ALOT. I should at the very least keep up the same pattern as before, if not increase the weight loss. I have a very distinct feeling that I am just going to be frustrated until I get home in three weeks to weigh myself on my scale. This is unbearable! And I even had my husband grab the scale from home and bring it to my parents house so I could weigh myself right before we left (and sadly I also considered packing it, but our bags would have been too heavy).
Added stress...
To really put the stress-eating-urge into overdrive, I had to take my one-year-old to the hospital last night with a ridiculously high fever. He is fine, just some tonsillitis, but I have not been so tempted to eat something bad since I started this diet. Thank God there's no chocolate cake sitting in front of my face...oh wait, there is...
So, quick recap of the last, say, five years of my life. Met a Brit, fell in love, gained weight, diagnosed with PCOS, graduated with a degree in Journalism (with which I have done nothing relevant), got married, lived in London for a year, got pregnant (very blessed), got fat, had a miscarriage, got fatter, got pregnant again (doubly blessed), got even fatter, now one year later am attempting the Protein Sparing Modified Fast (PSMF) while visiting the in-laws for a month in London.
Now I wondered if my stress levels may have been hindering my weight loss. The past few weeks (finals, packing, moving, traveling with a one year-old and three year-old) have been chaotic and extremely stressful. I have been losing weight, but I have also noticed that with each week that passes I lose a little less. I realize this could be a natural part of this unnatural diet, but at the same time, I eat so little I feel like I should be wasting away right now. And, although my husband says I am, I am in fact not wasting away.
Damn kilos and stones...
Initially I thought the scale here at my in-laws' house was fairly close to mine, maybe a pound off. But that is mostly because I happened to be right on one of the stone marks. However, I either cannot tell if I am losing weight, because the pound markers are minuscule in size, or I am in fact not losing weight...to which I would say: "What a crock of shit!"
I have probably eaten less here that at home...still in ketosis...and walking ALOT. I should at the very least keep up the same pattern as before, if not increase the weight loss. I have a very distinct feeling that I am just going to be frustrated until I get home in three weeks to weigh myself on my scale. This is unbearable! And I even had my husband grab the scale from home and bring it to my parents house so I could weigh myself right before we left (and sadly I also considered packing it, but our bags would have been too heavy).
Added stress...
To really put the stress-eating-urge into overdrive, I had to take my one-year-old to the hospital last night with a ridiculously high fever. He is fine, just some tonsillitis, but I have not been so tempted to eat something bad since I started this diet. Thank God there's no chocolate cake sitting in front of my face...oh wait, there is...
Monday, May 16, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Of course...weigh day! How did I forget?!
Ok... down 3.2lbs... Again... good to be down, but my concern is that each week is less and less in terms of how much I lose. I don't know whether or not I should be concerned. Been sticking strictly to the diet (other than the wine tonight).... hmmmm...any thoughts?
Guess I should throw in TWL (total weight loss) is now 20.7... which does mean that I've met my first goal and I get to get my tattoo! Yay! ---May just do that while I'm in London...we'll see!
Guess I should throw in TWL (total weight loss) is now 20.7... which does mean that I've met my first goal and I get to get my tattoo! Yay! ---May just do that while I'm in London...we'll see!
So London with pubs it is...
Answers...
Ok...the only non-diet thing I've done since commencement... I had two glasses of wine at the pub. The good news is I'm just fine...with exception of being slightly on the tipsy side. Considering I'm on vacation though I think I've done pretty fantastic. For goodness sake I had my mother-in-law LITERALLY trying to shove chocolate in my mouth and I resisted. I think if I can stick with it and have the occasional glass of wine I'm still in good shape. Then, when I return to the states, I will go back to normal...no wine, no nothing worth enjoying....
Is that awful?
Ok...the only non-diet thing I've done since commencement... I had two glasses of wine at the pub. The good news is I'm just fine...with exception of being slightly on the tipsy side. Considering I'm on vacation though I think I've done pretty fantastic. For goodness sake I had my mother-in-law LITERALLY trying to shove chocolate in my mouth and I resisted. I think if I can stick with it and have the occasional glass of wine I'm still in good shape. Then, when I return to the states, I will go back to normal...no wine, no nothing worth enjoying....
Is that awful?
Thursday, May 12, 2011
London with no Pubs?
To drink or not to drink...
So, as I had mentioned, traveling without snacks was kind of killer, but I barreled through and managed, once again, not to stray from the dreaded Protein Sparing Modified Fast...threw that in there in case someone was just catching up with my wildly popular little blog :oP...So are my two readers caught up? Thank you for making me feel special hunny and Noreen. Miss you by the way!
Anyway...back to the point. So here I am in London. Back for the first time in two and a half years. And I am not supposed to drink. Now, I have been fairly strong willed about sticking to this diet thus far, I think I can say I'm proud of myself for not straying. This has been the most ridiculously stressful and chaotic month of my life. I have craved chocolate on a daily basis, but stuck with it.
But now I find myself with a whole new kind of dilemma. I'm in London and I will inevitably go to the pub with the in-laws...do I drink a glass of wine or not? I would actually love some input here if anyone is familiar with this diet. I am wondering out loud here: are you not supposed to drink purely because of the empty calories, or is there some more serious medical reason that I'm missing.
I'm happy to be here and visit, it has truly been too long, but anyone who has a mother-in-law can appreciate the fact that staying with them for a month (3 weeks of which my husband will not be here!) is a task that should allow for the occasional glass of wine. Not to mention, as I speak, my husband is out at the pub having "a few" beers. I'm here with the kids.... this trip will be nothing if not interesting.
So, as I had mentioned, traveling without snacks was kind of killer, but I barreled through and managed, once again, not to stray from the dreaded Protein Sparing Modified Fast...threw that in there in case someone was just catching up with my wildly popular little blog :oP...So are my two readers caught up? Thank you for making me feel special hunny and Noreen. Miss you by the way!
Anyway...back to the point. So here I am in London. Back for the first time in two and a half years. And I am not supposed to drink. Now, I have been fairly strong willed about sticking to this diet thus far, I think I can say I'm proud of myself for not straying. This has been the most ridiculously stressful and chaotic month of my life. I have craved chocolate on a daily basis, but stuck with it.
But now I find myself with a whole new kind of dilemma. I'm in London and I will inevitably go to the pub with the in-laws...do I drink a glass of wine or not? I would actually love some input here if anyone is familiar with this diet. I am wondering out loud here: are you not supposed to drink purely because of the empty calories, or is there some more serious medical reason that I'm missing.
I'm happy to be here and visit, it has truly been too long, but anyone who has a mother-in-law can appreciate the fact that staying with them for a month (3 weeks of which my husband will not be here!) is a task that should allow for the occasional glass of wine. Not to mention, as I speak, my husband is out at the pub having "a few" beers. I'm here with the kids.... this trip will be nothing if not interesting.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Planes, Trains, and Automobiles...
Airport...
This will be speedy because I am sitting at the airport with two very antsy little boys...make that three. Hit up the duty-free shop, I swear you could smell the chocolate in the air. Even bought some for the mother-in-law. So hungry today. Finding it very difficult to travel without being able to snack on something like chocolate.
Oh, I also bought my favorite perfume at the duty-free... consequently I have been dealing with a grumpy husband for the past 45 minutes... great. The man who forgot his suitcase apparently has a right to judge. Oh, by the way, how much did you spend on golf last summer hunny?
Next stop...London
This will be speedy because I am sitting at the airport with two very antsy little boys...make that three. Hit up the duty-free shop, I swear you could smell the chocolate in the air. Even bought some for the mother-in-law. So hungry today. Finding it very difficult to travel without being able to snack on something like chocolate.
Oh, I also bought my favorite perfume at the duty-free... consequently I have been dealing with a grumpy husband for the past 45 minutes... great. The man who forgot his suitcase apparently has a right to judge. Oh, by the way, how much did you spend on golf last summer hunny?
Next stop...London
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Packing...again...
Packing, unpacking, and packing again...
Well, after a week of packing everything I own, and a weekend of UNpacking everything I own...Now I am packing 30 days worth of things I own. How do you pack for a 30 day trip to London to visit the in-laws?
Diet and vacation don't mix...
So far I have managed to stick to the diet, but I'm not going to lie... the next 30 days will be rough. Especially the trip there and back. I just made a trip to good old Walmart and packed some provisions...low-fat string cheese, low-fat single-serving ham, hard-boiled eggs... you get the point. Let's hope it helps on this torturous 12 hour trip with a one year old and three year old.
Wish me luck...
Well, after a week of packing everything I own, and a weekend of UNpacking everything I own...Now I am packing 30 days worth of things I own. How do you pack for a 30 day trip to London to visit the in-laws?
Diet and vacation don't mix...
So far I have managed to stick to the diet, but I'm not going to lie... the next 30 days will be rough. Especially the trip there and back. I just made a trip to good old Walmart and packed some provisions...low-fat string cheese, low-fat single-serving ham, hard-boiled eggs... you get the point. Let's hope it helps on this torturous 12 hour trip with a one year old and three year old.
Wish me luck...
Monday, May 9, 2011
Moving hiatus,..
The horrors...
So we don't have internet yet at the new place... it is amazing how difficult that has been. No internet is like living with no water. It is a true lifeline. (Not to sound dramatic or anything!) But now I am back to my parents for two days before we leave for London for a month to see the in-laws (duh, duh, duuuhhh...).
PSMF....Grrrr....
I woke up yesterday (and continued on throughout the whole day) in the worst slump yet, by far. I mean I was ready to give up. I know that part of the problem is all this moving shit (I HATE moving), and also the fact that my mom stayed with us all weekend to "help" out, God love her (Ahhhhhh!), but I think I was really just having one of those days where you just wonder if it's worth it. Is it worth it to feel miserable just to get thin. Apparently in the end I decided it was, because I stuck with my diet.
Seriously though, does anyone else ever feel resentful that they aren't allowed to be happy just because they aren't a size 4?
Finding my scale...
Well, I would love to see how I'm doing, but I currently can't find the box with my scale in it. That is my first goal of the day.... will keep you posted. It is really the only thing that keeps me on track sometimes I think.
So we don't have internet yet at the new place... it is amazing how difficult that has been. No internet is like living with no water. It is a true lifeline. (Not to sound dramatic or anything!) But now I am back to my parents for two days before we leave for London for a month to see the in-laws (duh, duh, duuuhhh...).
PSMF....Grrrr....
I woke up yesterday (and continued on throughout the whole day) in the worst slump yet, by far. I mean I was ready to give up. I know that part of the problem is all this moving shit (I HATE moving), and also the fact that my mom stayed with us all weekend to "help" out, God love her (Ahhhhhh!), but I think I was really just having one of those days where you just wonder if it's worth it. Is it worth it to feel miserable just to get thin. Apparently in the end I decided it was, because I stuck with my diet.
Seriously though, does anyone else ever feel resentful that they aren't allowed to be happy just because they aren't a size 4?
Finding my scale...
Well, I would love to see how I'm doing, but I currently can't find the box with my scale in it. That is my first goal of the day.... will keep you posted. It is really the only thing that keeps me on track sometimes I think.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Weigh Day...and moving day!
Check in:
Ok, so 4 pounds down this week. Again, realize that's good, but having a hard time getting psyched about it.... I'm sure I'll feel better after we're moved and settled and I'm not so stressed.
Ok, so 4 pounds down this week. Again, realize that's good, but having a hard time getting psyched about it.... I'm sure I'll feel better after we're moved and settled and I'm not so stressed.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Holy Crap...
10:43PM:
Well it's almost quarter to eleven and I have about two minutes to post, because I am STILL not done packing! Ahhhh! Movers will be here in about 10 hours.
No food:
So, totally by accident I didn't eat today. I woke up and wasn't ready for breakfast, but wanted something sweet. So I had my allowed one sugar free jello. Then I started packing and by the time I new it I was literally running to my final exam and I realized I hadn't eaten so I grabbed a low-fat string cheese out of the fridge and a diet mountain dew.
Then I had my final, raced home and have been packing every second until I just now sat down to update this guy. There are no words that better suit my situation right now other than: Holy crap....
See you tomorrow on weigh day...
Well it's almost quarter to eleven and I have about two minutes to post, because I am STILL not done packing! Ahhhh! Movers will be here in about 10 hours.
No food:
So, totally by accident I didn't eat today. I woke up and wasn't ready for breakfast, but wanted something sweet. So I had my allowed one sugar free jello. Then I started packing and by the time I new it I was literally running to my final exam and I realized I hadn't eaten so I grabbed a low-fat string cheese out of the fridge and a diet mountain dew.
Then I had my final, raced home and have been packing every second until I just now sat down to update this guy. There are no words that better suit my situation right now other than: Holy crap....
See you tomorrow on weigh day...
Insomnia...
Day three of packing...
So my husband is already in Columbus at his new job, and here I am with a one-year-old, a three-year-old, and a shit-load of packing to do. Three days into packing and I swear on my life there is nothing packed! How can so much shit fit into a two bedroom apartment? Oh, did I mention it's finals week?
Ok, I'm not going to complain anymore about it, mostly because I think it can only be considered therapeutic and not completely annoying when you do it for one or two posts...any more than that, well you get the point. Ok...just one more thing...
THIS WOULD BE SO MUCH EASIER WITH A GLASS OF WINE!! Or at least a little chocolate :o)
Nevertheless...
Regardless of what has been going on, I can't believe I've actually stuck to this diet 100%! Yay! I was a little terrified over the past couple weeks (and the coming few weeks too) because it is so stressful right now, but I feel like I'm coping ok. With a little help from the occasional Adavant.... ;o)
Anyone out there?
I don't presume to believe that anyone actually reads my blog besides my husband and my friend Noreen (blog shout-out)...but if there is anyone else doing this fast right now, I would love to here how they are doing and what they are doing to help them cope!
So my husband is already in Columbus at his new job, and here I am with a one-year-old, a three-year-old, and a shit-load of packing to do. Three days into packing and I swear on my life there is nothing packed! How can so much shit fit into a two bedroom apartment? Oh, did I mention it's finals week?
Ok, I'm not going to complain anymore about it, mostly because I think it can only be considered therapeutic and not completely annoying when you do it for one or two posts...any more than that, well you get the point. Ok...just one more thing...
THIS WOULD BE SO MUCH EASIER WITH A GLASS OF WINE!! Or at least a little chocolate :o)
Nevertheless...
Regardless of what has been going on, I can't believe I've actually stuck to this diet 100%! Yay! I was a little terrified over the past couple weeks (and the coming few weeks too) because it is so stressful right now, but I feel like I'm coping ok. With a little help from the occasional Adavant.... ;o)
Anyone out there?
I don't presume to believe that anyone actually reads my blog besides my husband and my friend Noreen (blog shout-out)...but if there is anyone else doing this fast right now, I would love to here how they are doing and what they are doing to help them cope!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Protein Sparing Modified Fast, what is it?
"The Protein-Sparing Modified Fast (PSMF) is designed for rapid weight loss and incorporates medical, nutritional, and behavioral components. The goal of this diet is to reach an appropriate body weight as determined by your physician and dietitian.
Carbohydrate, protein, and fat are the nutrients in food that provide energy for proper functioning, maintenance, and repair of the body. In addition to these three nutrients, the human body requires water, vitamins, and minerals for good health.
While on the PSMF program, only lean meat, seafood, poultry, and a limited amount of low-carbohydrate vegetables should be eaten. Carbohydrates and additional forms of fat are not allowed on this program. The high protein intake is to prevent the body from using its own protein stores in muscles, tissues, and cells for energy. Thus the program is a "modified" fast.
Carbohydrates are usually the body's primary source of energy. Since a very limited amount of carbohydrates are consumed, fat becomes the primary fuel source for the body. This rapid breakdown of fat produces ketones that spill into the urine, called ketosis. Ketones in the urine are desirable. While in ketosis, most people lose their appetite, which is a benefit of this program. A large amount of the water in your body is stored with carbohydrates. Since carbohydrate intake is severely limited and storage is severely depleted, dehydration is a health concern. To compensate, adequate quantities of fluid, sodium, and prescription potassium are required each day. Eating foods that are not appropriate can stop ketosis, which not only means less weight reduction, but it can cause dangerous shifts in the body's fluid and electrolytes."
Carbohydrate, protein, and fat are the nutrients in food that provide energy for proper functioning, maintenance, and repair of the body. In addition to these three nutrients, the human body requires water, vitamins, and minerals for good health.
While on the PSMF program, only lean meat, seafood, poultry, and a limited amount of low-carbohydrate vegetables should be eaten. Carbohydrates and additional forms of fat are not allowed on this program. The high protein intake is to prevent the body from using its own protein stores in muscles, tissues, and cells for energy. Thus the program is a "modified" fast.
Carbohydrates are usually the body's primary source of energy. Since a very limited amount of carbohydrates are consumed, fat becomes the primary fuel source for the body. This rapid breakdown of fat produces ketones that spill into the urine, called ketosis. Ketones in the urine are desirable. While in ketosis, most people lose their appetite, which is a benefit of this program. A large amount of the water in your body is stored with carbohydrates. Since carbohydrate intake is severely limited and storage is severely depleted, dehydration is a health concern. To compensate, adequate quantities of fluid, sodium, and prescription potassium are required each day. Eating foods that are not appropriate can stop ketosis, which not only means less weight reduction, but it can cause dangerous shifts in the body's fluid and electrolytes."
Monday, May 2, 2011
PSMF w/PCOS Day Eighteen -- Sigh (solution to chocolate cravings)
Sigh of relief...
Well I woke up this morning with renewed hope. Weighed in a pound and a half less than yesterday. Really wondering if missing my Magnesium two days in a row caused this blip? It is supposed to keep you from bloating. Hmm...anyway, at least I don't feel quite so frustrated anymore.
Papers, packing, class, kids...when do I sleep?
The one good thing I can say is that I officially finished my papers this morning...Thank the Lord. However, I still have EVERYTHING to pack for the move...oh and the movers arrive Friday at 9am, have an exam to study for on Thursday, class at night, kids all day, and I am missing one husband who is basking in his freedom in Columbus at his new job, which incidentally is a lingerie company.... sounds suspicious to me ;o)
I almost forgot!
I MAY have found a solution to the chocolate problem! (Did I already talk about this?) Horrible memory...anyway...Tofutti fudgsicles. They aren't half bad. You kind of have to get past the slightly slimy outside, although I think that could be my freezer's fault. I realized the door wasn't all the way shut so I think they started melting. Either way, worth a try if you are as desperate as me for chocolate!
Well I woke up this morning with renewed hope. Weighed in a pound and a half less than yesterday. Really wondering if missing my Magnesium two days in a row caused this blip? It is supposed to keep you from bloating. Hmm...anyway, at least I don't feel quite so frustrated anymore.
Papers, packing, class, kids...when do I sleep?
The one good thing I can say is that I officially finished my papers this morning...Thank the Lord. However, I still have EVERYTHING to pack for the move...oh and the movers arrive Friday at 9am, have an exam to study for on Thursday, class at night, kids all day, and I am missing one husband who is basking in his freedom in Columbus at his new job, which incidentally is a lingerie company.... sounds suspicious to me ;o)
I almost forgot!
I MAY have found a solution to the chocolate problem! (Did I already talk about this?) Horrible memory...anyway...Tofutti fudgsicles. They aren't half bad. You kind of have to get past the slightly slimy outside, although I think that could be my freezer's fault. I realized the door wasn't all the way shut so I think they started melting. Either way, worth a try if you are as desperate as me for chocolate!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
You have got to be kidding me...
Am I bitter? Yes....
Ok, I know that overall my diet would be considered successful...I've continued to lose weight, etc. However, not only did I feel disappointment yesterday morning when I woke up and realized it was the first day I didn't lose anything, but then I had to face pizza and birthday cake feeling that disappointment. And I stayed strong. Instead of eating the food I pulled out that disgusting can of tuna and ate half of it plain.
So I went through all of that yesterday...followed it up with a night of no sleep working on my, what turned out to be, eight papers I have to get done for school. Then, I stop working when the boys wake up...check my ketones ("small" as usual)...then I check my weight... I gained 1/2 pound yesterday!!!!!
I realize that you aren't supposed to weigh yourself everyday, blah blah blah...and I realize that it may very well mean nothing. But SERIOUSLY, isn't sort of like pouring salt in the wound that I went through pure hell the day before only to find out I not only didn't lose weight, but gained.
Wow, I could bitch about this for awhile, but I won't...I'll end with my dad's explanation. As we were eating lunch at Arby's today (pathetic if you are on PSMF by the way....like one ounce of chicken sandwiched between tomatoes and onion)...so we're eating and I'm bitching, did I mention I could smell his curly fries, and his explanation is: "Maybe you absorbed the pizza molecules floating around in the air."
I may normally slough that off as silliness, however, I am beginning to think that my body is so f'ed up and determined to defy nature...there might just be something to that....
Ok, I know that overall my diet would be considered successful...I've continued to lose weight, etc. However, not only did I feel disappointment yesterday morning when I woke up and realized it was the first day I didn't lose anything, but then I had to face pizza and birthday cake feeling that disappointment. And I stayed strong. Instead of eating the food I pulled out that disgusting can of tuna and ate half of it plain.
So I went through all of that yesterday...followed it up with a night of no sleep working on my, what turned out to be, eight papers I have to get done for school. Then, I stop working when the boys wake up...check my ketones ("small" as usual)...then I check my weight... I gained 1/2 pound yesterday!!!!!
I realize that you aren't supposed to weigh yourself everyday, blah blah blah...and I realize that it may very well mean nothing. But SERIOUSLY, isn't sort of like pouring salt in the wound that I went through pure hell the day before only to find out I not only didn't lose weight, but gained.
Wow, I could bitch about this for awhile, but I won't...I'll end with my dad's explanation. As we were eating lunch at Arby's today (pathetic if you are on PSMF by the way....like one ounce of chicken sandwiched between tomatoes and onion)...so we're eating and I'm bitching, did I mention I could smell his curly fries, and his explanation is: "Maybe you absorbed the pizza molecules floating around in the air."
I may normally slough that off as silliness, however, I am beginning to think that my body is so f'ed up and determined to defy nature...there might just be something to that....
Does ketosis or PSMF cause depression?
Birthday Party...
Today was my baby's first birthday party... my little men are getting so big! :o( This was also a little sad because it was the typical birthday party: cake, pizza, and more cake. And of course the beer and wine I couldn't drink to soften the blow...
I picked up the cake, then went straight to pick up the pizza....one may argue that those aromas are not for mixing in a car, but I was pretty much dying inside. I'm so HUNGRY! Made it through the party without a single slip though, even though I, of course, was given the job of cutting the delicious looking cake. It was killer...
All-nighter, no snacks...
It used to be, when I was up all night doing school work that by keeping a bowl of pretzels, or even vegetables for goodness sake, would help keep me going when I would not be gracing the bed with my presence that night. I can't even have a good Skinny Caramel Macchiato to keep me going.... I have a perfectly good Starbucks gift card sitting unused. :o(
Depressed....
I'm really pretty sure that this diet actually makes me a little depressed. And I'm not talking about my silly ranting about missing Starbucks and chocolate, although that is depressing in its own right. I am referring to feeling actually depressed. I have been the most emotional person the past two weeks, I can't remember ever crying this much! I pity my husband and kids right now...
Kicker...
Oh, and here's the kicker...this was the first morning I woke up and had lost zero pounds. I know this shouldn't matter right now, I'm only supposed to go by my weekly weight, but it's still depressing...
Today was my baby's first birthday party... my little men are getting so big! :o( This was also a little sad because it was the typical birthday party: cake, pizza, and more cake. And of course the beer and wine I couldn't drink to soften the blow...
I picked up the cake, then went straight to pick up the pizza....one may argue that those aromas are not for mixing in a car, but I was pretty much dying inside. I'm so HUNGRY! Made it through the party without a single slip though, even though I, of course, was given the job of cutting the delicious looking cake. It was killer...
All-nighter, no snacks...
It used to be, when I was up all night doing school work that by keeping a bowl of pretzels, or even vegetables for goodness sake, would help keep me going when I would not be gracing the bed with my presence that night. I can't even have a good Skinny Caramel Macchiato to keep me going.... I have a perfectly good Starbucks gift card sitting unused. :o(
Depressed....
I'm really pretty sure that this diet actually makes me a little depressed. And I'm not talking about my silly ranting about missing Starbucks and chocolate, although that is depressing in its own right. I am referring to feeling actually depressed. I have been the most emotional person the past two weeks, I can't remember ever crying this much! I pity my husband and kids right now...
Kicker...
Oh, and here's the kicker...this was the first morning I woke up and had lost zero pounds. I know this shouldn't matter right now, I'm only supposed to go by my weekly weight, but it's still depressing...
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