Back on track

About time...
     So I can comfortably say this was a good week. After having what feelings like several not so good weeks, all I can say is it's about freakin time! Was down 4 pounds this week. Takes me to 53.6 pounds overall. It also takes me down into another news set of numbers...I do love when that happens. I have attached my chart as well, it helps me put it into perspective and realize that I have come a long way.

More to come...
     Later on today or tomorrow (my parents are visiting this weekend) I am going to remeasure everything and do some new stats...I'm interested to find out how much things have changed since the last time.

Ketosis good news

The good news...
    I do at least seem to be back into a state of ketosis. I still don't know why I ceased that last week, but as long as I am back in and stay there I'm ok!

Away all weekend AGAIN! Advice needed on Protein Sparing Modified Fast!

All freakin' weekend...
     So I was away all weekend again! This made weighing myself difficult, however, I will estimate my loss last week at one pound...which let's be honest, that sucks! I am not happy. I do have a factor or two coming into play, starting with the fact that it was just crappy timing in terms of which part of the month it was, I don't think I need to elaborate.

Back to basics...
     That being said, the past few days I have been doing quite well getting back to the basics I think. Sticking to a more stringent diet, so hopefully I will be able to see that this Friday...if not, I am afraid of what might happen. Because quite frankly, I am NOT going to make myself miserable with this diet if I am not going to continue to lose significant amounts of weight from it.

Help: advice and suggestions welcome!
     Which comes to my next point. I would really love to hear from anyone who has done, or is doing this diet and what that did/plan to do in the re-feeding phase. My current plans are to start the re-feeding process when I am about 15 pounds away from my goal. My rationale for this is that I will not go too crazy as I begin to add carbs back into my diet. I will be adding them in slowly and since I will still want to finish up the last little bit, I will be able to stay motivated to keep it in check and healthy.
     I also plan on running again as soon as I start putting carbs back into the diet, so hopefully that will help too. Again ANY suggestions would be much appreciated!

Arg!

So I just realized in the frenzy of the past weekend I forgot to post Friday! So quick update...two more pounds down. So as usual, good thing, but still doesn't quite feel good enough.

Now for the crappy news! I appear to have snapped out of ketosis! What the heck?! So I'm going to do the best I can over the next few days to get back into it and hope for the best...

Will update (hopefully less angry and frustrated) on Friday!

Side note...

No more complaining...ok, at least LESS complaining...
     I am thoroughly boring myself with the complaining and it has apparently going on longer than I thought. I was reviewing some posts and for at least 3 weeks I have been saying how "The past two weeks have been rough."
     So, I think I need to find my way out of the self-pity pit of despair and join the rest of the miserable real dieting world. Let's be honest, no one is going to say it's fun, but hell, if it keeps working, I will keep on, keep truckin' (Old School anyone?).

Save me from this temptation!

Temptation served with a side of guilt....
     Temptation is all around... Seriously, ALL around! Today was the worst! I have been claiming how the past couple weeks have been a little more difficult and I have been wanting regular food more, but today was by far the worst. I baked a cake for my husband (tomorrow is International Food Day at his work). It actually turned out pretty cool. I made a red velvet cake and gave it a raspberry jam-ish filling by poking holes throughout the cake and pouring it in. Then I made a cool whip/cream cheese frosting and my husband topped it off with blueberries and raspberries creating a Union Jack flag. He is proud to be British! :o)
     Now to the bad part. I was so flustered this morning, running around like crazy trying to pack us up to take the kids to my parents' for the week/weekend. I had to go to the store to get the ingredients for the cake, etc. Plus the general fact that pretty much everything is a production with two kids (3 and under).
     So here I am amidst my chaos, trying to ignore the glorious smell of the cake batter, when I did it. Looking back on it, it's like slow motion. I see it happening, but there is nothing I can do to stop it. I licked the spoon. I think there was some part of me (given that I haven't put myself in a position to bake a cake since I have been on the diet) that just instinctually licked the spoon. But then, it's like something happens to you. Your body recognizes the sugar instantly and wants more! It was horribly wonderful of course.
     I mean, I haven't had anything that wonderful tasting near my mouth in months, then all of the sudden there it is and I am losing self control, and quick.... Oh man... needless to say I did stop, but not until I had licked the spoon a few times and then I felt miserably guilty.

But for two glorious minutes I remembered what it felt like to be human...

*I personally like my added touch of the disposable pan...I won't be back home for 5 days...just imagine the sheer bitterness of scrubbing a 5-day-old cake pan. Let's be honest, it would have gotten tossed anyway!

NEGLECT!

Struggle and Neglect...
     It has come to my attention (via a few emails) that I am neglecting my blogging responsibilities. I could give a lot of excuses for this (like my two kids and million things to do), however I really think that I am just really struggling the past couple weeks. (Not to be too repetitive!) I would give anything for a donut or some Ben & Jerry's right now!! As usual, I haven't cheated, but I am an awful person to be around this weekend especially (just ask my husband).

Small losses...
     I am seriously considering changing my weigh day to Saturdays. It always seems like I am significantly lighter on Saturday mornings vs. Friday mornings...don't know what that's about. Regardless, my weigh day was reasonable...lost two pounds. Would probably help my attitude to have a higher loss though...when I feel like I'm really struggling then don't have a significant loss it makes it a lot harder to keep my motivation up. (Still grateful overall though of course...up to 46.5 lbs.)

Next Friday...
     I think that next Friday I will do my usual update (and I will make a concerted effort to be more attentive to my blog) and I think I will also update my other stats again. I like doing that occasionally too because its just more numbers you get to see changing!

Joke...
     I was just rereading my July 1st post...HA! Obviously I still have gotten up the motivation to live up to that post!