Temptation is all around... Seriously, ALL around! Today was the worst! I have been claiming how the past couple weeks have been a little more difficult and I have been wanting regular food more, but today was by far the worst. I baked a cake for my husband (tomorrow is International Food Day at his work). It actually turned out pretty cool. I made a red velvet cake and gave it a raspberry jam-ish filling by poking holes throughout the cake and pouring it in. Then I made a cool whip/cream cheese frosting and my husband topped it off with blueberries and raspberries creating a Union Jack flag. He is proud to be British! :o)
Now to the bad part. I was so flustered this morning, running around like crazy trying to pack us up to take the kids to my parents' for the week/weekend. I had to go to the store to get the ingredients for the cake, etc. Plus the general fact that pretty much everything is a production with two kids (3 and under).
So here I am amidst my chaos, trying to ignore the glorious smell of the cake batter, when I did it. Looking back on it, it's like slow motion. I see it happening, but there is nothing I can do to stop it. I licked the spoon. I think there was some part of me (given that I haven't put myself in a position to bake a cake since I have been on the diet) that just instinctually licked the spoon. But then, it's like something happens to you. Your body recognizes the sugar instantly and wants more! It was horribly wonderful of course.
I mean, I haven't had anything that wonderful tasting near my mouth in months, then all of the sudden there it is and I am losing self control, and quick.... Oh man... needless to say I did stop, but not until I had licked the spoon a few times and then I felt miserably guilty.
But for two glorious minutes I remembered what it felt like to be human...
*I personally like my added touch of the disposable pan...I won't be back home for 5 days...just imagine the sheer bitterness of scrubbing a 5-day-old cake pan. Let's be honest, it would have gotten tossed anyway!
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