Mid-diet crisis...
I'm still not sure if it's that I am half-way through my diet and starting to have a slightly less strict mindset because I'm actually starting to know a difference, or if my body is telling me that it's sick of this shit... whatever the reason, I am really struggling.
Clearly unmotivated...
I have lost some element of motivation that I had before. I started writing this post two or three days ago! I don't know what my issue is. I haven't stopped the diet or anything, but I, as I said before, am REALLY struggling. I desperately want to be done, but I feel like I am not even close. Feeling a little depressed too. Don't know what I need to do to get out of this funk, but I wish the solution would present itself soon, I really don't want to screw this up.
Weigh day...
On a slightly more positive note, today was weigh day and I lost 3.6 lbs. Brings my total to 44.5 lbs. Every day I get closer, yet every day it seems like my goal is an eternity away.
*God, could I sound anymore sullen today? Ick. Maybe a Noreen visit would help :o)
About Me
- OnMyWayToThin...
- I am a 27 year-old wife and mother of two. I am currently in a Grad School Intervention Specialist Program, though my undergrad was in Journalism and that is were my real passion lies. Don't get me wrong, I know I will love what I do...I have worked with kids with Special Needs for half my life, but I also have a great passion for journalism and literature.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
Weigh day again (after a long silence!)
New beginnings...
Ok, so this was my worst of all worst weeks. I did lose, but only 1.7 lbs. So I have made a decision. As of now, I am going to go back to the start of my diet and follow it word for word. I never had anything that wasn't allowed on my diet, but I definitely became more lax about eyeballing things instead of weighing and had more cheese servings.
So, from now on I am back to basics to see if I can give myself another jumpstart on this diet. I am approximately half way through so I don't want to lose my momentum yet (which I sort of have).
I will be weighing my 13 oz. of protein and I will be strict about everything I eat so that it matches the diet 100%.
This will also include a post every day -- I will be using this to keep track of my food and probably to bitch a little bit! :op
---I should note though, my daily posts will not start until Monday/Tuesday. My whole family will be at my house this weekend and realistically I am not going to have the time or energy to do much!!
On that note I am off on a cleaning spree at the moment so see you Monday/Tuesday and every day after that! I am still determined to reach my goal, even if I start feeling better about myself! (God willing!)
Ok, so this was my worst of all worst weeks. I did lose, but only 1.7 lbs. So I have made a decision. As of now, I am going to go back to the start of my diet and follow it word for word. I never had anything that wasn't allowed on my diet, but I definitely became more lax about eyeballing things instead of weighing and had more cheese servings.
So, from now on I am back to basics to see if I can give myself another jumpstart on this diet. I am approximately half way through so I don't want to lose my momentum yet (which I sort of have).
I will be weighing my 13 oz. of protein and I will be strict about everything I eat so that it matches the diet 100%.
This will also include a post every day -- I will be using this to keep track of my food and probably to bitch a little bit! :op
---I should note though, my daily posts will not start until Monday/Tuesday. My whole family will be at my house this weekend and realistically I am not going to have the time or energy to do much!!
On that note I am off on a cleaning spree at the moment so see you Monday/Tuesday and every day after that! I am still determined to reach my goal, even if I start feeling better about myself! (God willing!)
Friday, June 24, 2011
Weigh Day again
Not too shabby...
Well, this was a pretty decent week. I lost 3.6 lbs I am however a little disappointed...My next benchmark was going to be 40 lbs and this week's loss took me to 39.2, a stinkin' eight-tenths of a pound away! How frustrating! Oh, well, I guess I can't complain too much...just frustrating to come so close!
No Sleep...
I swear I haven't had a decent night's sleep in 3 years (make that 4 - pregnancy is just as bad for sleep as babies). But the past week has been hellish! I'm trying to get my one-year-old to sleep in his new crib and it has turned out to be quite the exhausting ordeal. This is not helping make my PSMF easier either. When I am constantly up that late at night I am seriously craving chocolate! I swear if I were a sleep walker I would probably be walking to the nearest store with almond joys!
Half way point...
So I am around what I had considered the half-way point of my diet. When I made my progress charts I made them for twenty weeks and I am currently at week ten. I can't figure out if I am reaching a slump (in terms of motivation) or just the opposite. Some days I feel so FREAKING sick of eating protein and vegetables and NOTHING else. And some days I feel super motivated by the fact that I am finally noticing a difference in terms of clothes size etc. Think I need some more motivation. Any suggestions?
Well, this was a pretty decent week. I lost 3.6 lbs I am however a little disappointed...My next benchmark was going to be 40 lbs and this week's loss took me to 39.2, a stinkin' eight-tenths of a pound away! How frustrating! Oh, well, I guess I can't complain too much...just frustrating to come so close!
No Sleep...
I swear I haven't had a decent night's sleep in 3 years (make that 4 - pregnancy is just as bad for sleep as babies). But the past week has been hellish! I'm trying to get my one-year-old to sleep in his new crib and it has turned out to be quite the exhausting ordeal. This is not helping make my PSMF easier either. When I am constantly up that late at night I am seriously craving chocolate! I swear if I were a sleep walker I would probably be walking to the nearest store with almond joys!
Half way point...
So I am around what I had considered the half-way point of my diet. When I made my progress charts I made them for twenty weeks and I am currently at week ten. I can't figure out if I am reaching a slump (in terms of motivation) or just the opposite. Some days I feel so FREAKING sick of eating protein and vegetables and NOTHING else. And some days I feel super motivated by the fact that I am finally noticing a difference in terms of clothes size etc. Think I need some more motivation. Any suggestions?
Friday, June 17, 2011
Other stats...
Other promising statistics and numbers...
BMI: my bmi is down six points
Size: sometimes it's hard to tell this accurately because of the difference in stores etc. But, it seems like my clothes size went down about three sizes. My bra size also appears to have gone down, they are also much more flattering (slightly less pudge to stick out!)
Inches: Overall (if I am adding them up the correct way) I have lost 21.5 inches. 2 per thigh, 1.25 per calf, 6 in my waist, 4 on my hips, 1 per bicep, 3 on my chest.
BMI: my bmi is down six points
Size: sometimes it's hard to tell this accurately because of the difference in stores etc. But, it seems like my clothes size went down about three sizes. My bra size also appears to have gone down, they are also much more flattering (slightly less pudge to stick out!)
Inches: Overall (if I am adding them up the correct way) I have lost 21.5 inches. 2 per thigh, 1.25 per calf, 6 in my waist, 4 on my hips, 1 per bicep, 3 on my chest.
Weigh day let down...
Down, but not much...
So I clearly jinxed myself yesterday, but I thought I was having a particularly good week because when I weighed myself yesterday morning I was down quite a bit. However, I was about 1.2 pounds heavier this morning than yesterday morning...that has not happened since I started this diet. I always consistently go down day to day, or at the very least stay the same...never went up though.
Either way, my loss for this week was 2.9 lbs. I figure that's not too bad either considering my last weigh day was actually Sunday, so I only had 5 days, instead of the usual seven. Will probably weigh myself on Sunday too, just to see what the full week would have brought me. Today's weight will remain my official count for the week though.
Running total: 35.6 pounds
So I clearly jinxed myself yesterday, but I thought I was having a particularly good week because when I weighed myself yesterday morning I was down quite a bit. However, I was about 1.2 pounds heavier this morning than yesterday morning...that has not happened since I started this diet. I always consistently go down day to day, or at the very least stay the same...never went up though.
Either way, my loss for this week was 2.9 lbs. I figure that's not too bad either considering my last weigh day was actually Sunday, so I only had 5 days, instead of the usual seven. Will probably weigh myself on Sunday too, just to see what the full week would have brought me. Today's weight will remain my official count for the week though.
Running total: 35.6 pounds
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Weigh day tomorrow!
Friday morning is nearly here (duh-duh-duhhhhh)...
Feeling pretty positive about tomorrow morning's weigh in. Had a good clothes week I guess...went into American Eagle for the first time in years and fit comfortably in a pair of their jeans (and not the biggest size they offer either!)
Fingers crossed things go as well as hoped!
Feeling pretty positive about tomorrow morning's weigh in. Had a good clothes week I guess...went into American Eagle for the first time in years and fit comfortably in a pair of their jeans (and not the biggest size they offer either!)
Fingers crossed things go as well as hoped!
No Sleep....
Three days...
So for the past three days I haven't really been sleeping. This poses a particular problem with my diet because then I not only have to fight hunger pangs and carb cravings all day long, but then in the middle of the night as well when, let's be honest, inhibitions are lowered anyway. It's been rough, especially last night when I literally didn't sleep AT ALL!
And I would not admit to this if not for the saving grace of the anonymity of blogging, but in my sleepless hungry hours I have watched the entire series of Wildfire! I think I actually had an addiction. Just finished the last episode this morning. So of course last night I was sitting on the couch bawling my eyes out most of the night. It is a very dramatic show...
No cheating...
Regardless of my hopeless battle with hunger and cravings I have managed not to cheat. I have only Diet Mountain Dew and cigarettes to thank for that though (and my very supportive husband)! Those are healthy ways of fighting food cravings right? :op
So for the past three days I haven't really been sleeping. This poses a particular problem with my diet because then I not only have to fight hunger pangs and carb cravings all day long, but then in the middle of the night as well when, let's be honest, inhibitions are lowered anyway. It's been rough, especially last night when I literally didn't sleep AT ALL!
And I would not admit to this if not for the saving grace of the anonymity of blogging, but in my sleepless hungry hours I have watched the entire series of Wildfire! I think I actually had an addiction. Just finished the last episode this morning. So of course last night I was sitting on the couch bawling my eyes out most of the night. It is a very dramatic show...
No cheating...
Regardless of my hopeless battle with hunger and cravings I have managed not to cheat. I have only Diet Mountain Dew and cigarettes to thank for that though (and my very supportive husband)! Those are healthy ways of fighting food cravings right? :op
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