Weigh Day Week Two....

I'll give it to you straight...
     So I'm a little disappointed I think. Which, if you are like me, a person who has a hard time losing weight, please don't be silently cursing me as you read this. It's just, I feel like as drastically as I have adjusted my diet and all, it seems like I should be able to notice weight loss on myself....clothes should fit better, people should be able to look and say "did you lose weight?"
     But, as it were, I have lost 5.9 lbs this week. Again, I know it's not bad, so don't start sending bad juju my way, but I feel like I am suffering through this diet and I guess I think I deserve a little better than that for as good as I have been. I mean, for God's sake, I made it through Easter (at THREE different houses!)...I made it through the beginnings of finals week where everyone seems to be sent some subliminal message to bring copious amounts of wonderfully awful foods, like doritos and easter candy. Don't I deserve a little better than 5.9 lbs?
     It's ok, you can tell me to stop being a whiney bitch and be grateful...I realize how it sounds.

Hypnotherapy...
     So, on a less annoyed note, I saw a Hypnotherapist yesterday for the first time. My therapist suggested it to me and I figured "What the hell!" Anyway... we went through about an hour of the whole question answer routine. Although, I must say that this particular question answer session was NOT quite as routine as the ones I have be part of in the past. He asked some VERY personal and VERY embarrassing moments! I am almost too embarrassed to say it here and this is anonymous! I did say 'almost' though....
     So he wanted to know EVERYTHING... when I first had sex, do I like sex, how often do I have sex, when was the first time I masturbated (Ahhhh!), am I depressed, have I ever had a psychotic break....and on and on and on, for an hour. Imagine answering those questions to an 80 year old man. I'll say it again... Ahhhhh!
     Anyway, so after the terribly embarrassing question answer session I had my first hypnosis session. It was interesting, but I can't rightly make any judgements on the whole process yet because the first session is more of an introduction. He went through the whole relaxation process and used imagery,  but mostly there was positive affirmations and assurance of the process and security. Next session I guess will be getting into the foggy abyss that is my subconscious...scary.

To Sum it...
     I lost 5.9 lbs this week. Total weight loss is now 13.4 lbs. I am now seeing a Therapist AND a Hypnotherapist (who by the way doesn't believe in diets.... wants me to stop....fat chance)
Will be returning later with some good info on the Protein Sparing Modified Fast and Ketosis as promised.

PSMF w/PCOS Day Eleven -- Oh the irony...

Irony...
     So I think it's pretty ironic that I manage to survive all the Easter baskets and Easter dinner, especially considering the only thing I had available to me for lunch was raw cucumber, I made it through all that without cheating, then I weigh myself the next day I was up. Ok only like two-tenths of a pound, but still...how ridiculous!

Going Simple...
     So I have decided that the easiest and probably best thing for me while I'm struggling is to keep it very simple. So today (and yesterday alike) I had chicken for breakfast (I know...yuck), chicken and broccoli for lunch, and...you guessed it, chicken and broccoli for dinner. I drank tons of water as usual and I think I had one twenty ounce Diet Mountain Dew (so I didn't go over my aspartame restrictions.

Chaos...
     My life in a nutshell: Babies (1 & 3), husband, endless laundry, painful feet due to "toy on the floor" syndrome, Grad school, two weeks until a month in London with the in-laws, one week until my husband starts a new job in a new city, two days until I have to go apartment hunting AGAIN, four days until my son's first birthday party, 14 hours until I have to present to my class, and approximately 5 minutes until I completely lose my mind... I miss wine.

Staying strong...
     I can proudly say though that I have not swayed once, even though I want to go crazy, I have stuck to my guns! REALLY hope I can keep it up... and I really hope I am given reason to keep it up as well. I'm ok suffering through an extreme diet, but ONLY if I see the results. Wish me luck...

PSMF w/PCOS Day Ten -- Easter Part 2

Misery...
     So, like an idiot I forgot to bring my steamed broccoli with me. I figured I would be able to have ham and broccoli. I knew I couldn't count on any vegetables at Easter dinner because everyone uses either sauce or butter.
     So, like I said I forgot my broccoli, and as suspected there weren't any other cooked vegetables I could eat. However, I also wouldn't eat the ham. My Grandpa, God love him, decided to get extra creative this year and absolutely saturated the ham in a bourbon, molasses, honey sauce. I'm going to go ahead and guess that that would not be following my diet...

Cucumbers...
     And so there were cucumbers...a whole plate to be exact. I went and found the veggie tray and pilfered what I guesstimated to be one medium size cucumber, put them on my plated, salted them, and that was my Easter Dinner.
     Needless to say, I'm not feeling the Easter spirit today. If I have to see one more piece of damn chocolate I am liable to reach my breaking point and punch someone.

"Dinner"...
     Now I will go and enjoy my dinner of boiled chicken and steamed broccoli. Joyous day...


*Note to self (or anyone who may know the answer to my problem)...Find out why the hell my ketones still only come up as "small"!!

PSMF w/PCOS Day Ten -- Easter

Curses...
     I curse the person who turned Easter into a chocolate loving, candy filled holiday. I have a fairly big family, so we will go to my grandpa's house and everyone will be there with crap-loads of chocolate and we'll have a big traditional dinner with all my favorite foods... and I will be eating 4 oz of boiled chicken and 3.5 oz of plain broccoli. Wait, do I hear violins faintly playing in the background again?

Challenge...
     So today will be my biggest challenge in this fast thus far...Wish me luck! Hopefully when I check in later I will still be hungry & grumpy...but proud of myself!